So I woke up this morning with a heavy heart. I don’t really want to go in to it. Let’s just say, it’s something I feel now and again when I am somehow evaluating my whole life and situation in a matter of minutes. I advise that this is something nobody should do. It is not good, and leads to stupid, irrational thoughts. I’m trying to do this new thing where I don’t moan about the slightest of mood changes and make a mountain out of a mole hill. When I used to do this, one day I would be “oh, woe is me, the world is over and I hate my life and everything is just aaawwwful” and then the next day I would realise I was being so pathetically over the top and petty, that I would feel stupid about my feelings the day before! So, from now on, I have refrained from updating my facebook status to “life sucks” or “same shit, different day”; I have stopped moaning to others about it, and, more importantly, I have stopped taking it out on my fiancé, even sometimes blaming him for my “mood swings!” So this is as far as my “heavy heartedness” will publicly go. The rest will be written down in my notebook, because, as you all know, keeping feelings bottled up is not good!