Hysteria...

...is what I am feeling right now. 

I've been a real nasty piece of work lately, and it needs to stop.
I honestly can not figure it out why I am being so horrible and cold.

I don't know why I am lashing out.

Except, I know one thing.

I want it all. I want it now. I want to live. I want a career. I want a house. I want to go on holiday. 

I haven't got it all. It's so far away, I'm losing touch with reality.
I'm blaming it on the wrong person. I'm lashing out, making false accusations, saying things I don't mean.
It's hurting. I hate hurting people. Especially if it's the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. 

It's bugging me 

Grating me 

And twisting me around 

Yeah, I'm endlessly 

Caving in 

And turning inside out 

'Cause I want it now 

I want it now 

Give me your heart and your soul 

And I'm breaking out 

I'm breaking out 

Last chance to lose control 

It's holding me, morphing me 

And forcing me to strive 

To be endlessly cold within 

And dreaming I'm alive 

'Cause I want it now 

I want it now 

Give me your heart and your soul 

I'm not breaking down 

I'm breaking out 

Last chance to lose control 

And I want you now 

I want you now 

I feel my heart implode 

And I'm breaking out 

Escaping now 

Feeling my faith erode